Pouring Out & Filling Up

If there is one thing I’ve learned from the last 3 months of living in China and working with orphans, it’s the need to continually be “filled up with Jesus.”

The last week or two I have just felt drained. Tired and drained. I’ve been getting enough sleep, eating healthy, drinking lots of water (although I should probably be drinking a lot more), and spending time daily in His word.

I couldn’t figure out why I was just feeling “blah.” Then it hit me how much of myself I am pouring out to the work I’m doing and these precious children. I’m continually loving, spending time with them, and praying for them. And these are all good things! But every weekend I’ve been at the foster home and doing all that I can so that these children feel loved and cherished.

And then it hit me…

I am pouring so much of myself out to these kids, that I am not always taking the time to be filled up by Jesus.

In working with a variety of ministries over the years, I have learned how important it is to take time for myself and to just be with Jesus. Letting Him love on me and speak to me. Allowing myself to rest in Him.

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

~Matthew 11:28

And so that is what I have spent my weekend doing… finding rest and strength in Him. Allowing Him to fill me up so that I can pour out more of His love on these kids.

I am leaving this morning to go visit three different Chinese orphanages. I have never visited a Chinese orphanage before so it will be a whole new experience for me. I will have the experience of seeing how most Chinese orphans live. I know that I need the Lord’s strength for this trip. I will see more hurting and lonely orphaned children than I have ever seen in my entire life. Please pray for strength and for God to continue to break my heart for what breaks His. And that I will have the opportunity to share his love with these kids.

I wont be blogging for a few days since we’ll be traveling, but will once I return.

Anneli