Re-Entry

Re-entry is hard. I knew it was going to be, but for some reason it is much harder than I ever anticipated. This week has been, well weird. When people ask how I am, that is my answer.

I've been gone for almost 2 1/2 years. Yes, I've been home a month here and there during that time, but those visits were always different. I was only home for a while, then I was returning to China. This time it's different. Things have changed, I have changed, and I'm not quite sure where I fit in right now. I know, I know, it's only been a week. Which is what I keep reminding myself. It is going to take time and in time, God will reveal to me "what is next."

What have I been up to this past week? Sleep for one. Apparently, I am exhausted. Who knew? I like flying in at night. I don't sleep much on the plane so if I arrive at night, no matter what time my body thinks it is, I sleep. I have been sleeping through the night every night since I arrived home. Praise God! I have also been having a lot of family time. Since this re-entry has been a lot more difficult than I thought it would be, I haven't been in the mood to do a lot and I've been taking it easy with my family, which has been nice. You don't really realize how much being in a foreign country affects you, until you are back. Packing and cleaning has been another thing on my agenda the last few days. It is hard, because I don't want to unpack more than necessary since I'll most likely be moving somewhere at some point. The big question is, when? Since I don't know the answer to that, I'm not dwelling on it and taking advantage of the time I am here.

Yesterday I was able to spend time with my two nephews at the pool! They have changed so much since I saw them at Christmas time.

 After spending time at the pool, we went out on the boat for a little tubing. Again, always a fun time.

I am just taking one day at a time. 

Yes, this is definitely a period of transition, change, and uncertainty.

But even in this time of uncertainty, He is here. 

And that is what I am holding onto.

Psalm 139

I have wanted to spend more time meditating on scripture. I usually am one to read large amounts of scripture rather than just a verse two and focusing on those. With inspiration from another blog, (thanks Andrea!), I have decided to read through Psalm 139 for the next 24 days. There are 24 verses, so one verse a day. If you would like to join me, feel free too! I'll be posting the passage for the day at the end of each blog post.

"You have searched me, Lord, and you know me." (Psalm 139:1)

When I decided earlier this afternoon to do this 24 day reading, I read verse 1 right away. Now, I have read this passage many times but something about just reading one verse and quoting it over and over again in my mind throughout the day, is really powerful. He KNOWS me. He really knows me. All my thoughts, fears, joys, sorrows, and insecurities. He knows it all. My past, the present, and my future. Nothing is hidden from His sight.