Wednesday, February 20, 2013

The Good

I feel like I have been writing a lot of "real" posts lately. And real is good, but also it's not always the most enjoyable. I feel like I have been writing a lot about the "hard."
The thing is that yes, there is hard and a lot of it! 
But there is also good. 
And God is doing so many good things in my life.
My mornings are wonderful.
And once I get myself out of bed, are probably my favorite part of the day!
After sitting out on my balcony with a cup of coffee listening to the sounds of nature while I have my quiet time with God (except for yesterday when I overslept.... oops!), I go to the foster home where I am greeted by numerous little hands reaching up to be picked up.

How is that not the most incredible thing in the world?
To be loved by so many little people.
Little ones who ache and crave for my attention and love. 
Just to be loved and snuggled and kissed.

*Sigh* I love it.
And honestly, it's something I often take for granted.
When I'm feeling sorry for myself and wallowing in what I DON'T Have, I often forget to look at at what I DO have.
Do I have children of my own yet?
Not exactly.
But I am "mam" to 11 precious little sweeties for the time being.
Will they be mine forever?
Once their adoptive families come to bring them home, I have to let them go.
And let me tell you, that is one of the hardest things I have ever had to do.
It's something that I feel almost guilty about because they are joining the families God has prepared for them.
But yet, I am left missing them and feeling like part of my heart left as well.
God has done a healing in my heart this last year. 
If many of you have followed my blog for a while, you know that 2011 was a hard year.
A very hard year. If I had allowed myself to be "diagnosed" I definitely would have been depressed.
But the God of mercy, grace, and healing, has brought me into a new place.
A place that honestly I never would have gotten to had I not gone through what I did in 2011. 
And 2012 was a year of continued healing and restoration but also moving forward.
I know God has big plans for this upcoming year, my second year in China (!).

Of course I have no idea what those plans will be.
All I know is that it will be good.
Very, very good.

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  1. I like this post :)
    and I'm sorry that I keep tempting you with sweets that you don't have access to--wish I could send them to you through the computer!

    1. Haha, I really shouldn't complain and ask for too much sympathy since I'm flying home in 4 weeks for two months and I'm sure I'll get plenty of sweets (probably too much!) for that time I'm home!


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