Saturday, December 15, 2012

Falling in Love is Hard

Why does loving have to hurt so much? The pain of loving and the pain of letting go. This past week has been a tough one. My Sweet Girl has left to join her adoptive family. And that is a joyous thing right? So then why have there been tears and heartache over missing her? I am happy for her, I really am. But I will admit, it's hit me harder than I thought I would. I haven't been able to look at pictures or videos of her this week without tearing up. I feel like a momma duck with one of her ducklings missing. I have fallen in love. And now I have to let go. 


As I told my Dad on the phone today, it's hard loving. Not so hard loving, but hard in falling in love and having these children feel like mine and then letting them go. It must be similar to what their birth mother's go through. Loving them enough to let them go. I guess I just long for the day that I will be on the other side of the adoption process. That I will be the one adopting. That I can fall in love, but never have to let go.

*Sigh* One day it will be my turn. And what a glorious day that will be!


2 comments:

  1. I can imagine what you are going through must be very, very hard. Thank you for being willing to be vulnerable and put your heart on the line for these precious babies. That is a great sacrifice. It might be easier to give your time, money, and energy than to give your heart. . . Hugs!

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  2. ...yes it will, my friend.

    And YES YOU WILL!!♥

    God bless you for all you do... I can only imagine how hard it is to say 'farewell' when they leave to join their forever families.

    Sending love and hugs your way!!

    oxo,
    Tanya

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