Preparation

5 days.

That's the number of days I have before I head back to China.

 When I arrived back in the states on March 21st, I was ready for a break.

A time away to relax and renew.

Since my time home, I have missed my kids and my work at the foster home.

But I did not miss China.

As the days and weeks went by, I started to get a little nervous.

I had no desire to return.

Until I thought about my little ones.

But China as a country?

I was definitely not the one to talk to if you were thinking of moving there!

 What if my time of departure came and I still did not want to go back?

What then?

I knew that God would help me cross that bridge when and if I got there.

When I was applying for my visa and there was question whether I would be granted one or not, I realized just how much I DID want to go back.

 Thankfully the last two weeks, God has been working on my heart and preparing me to return.

And you know what?

I'm ready to go back.

I miss my kids.

I miss the work I do there.

I even kind of miss my life there.

 Even thought it will be so hard to leave my family and friends again, I know that God is calling me back to China.

For how long, I am not sure, but I know for now, that is where He wants me.

 As I prepare to board a plane in 5 days, I am filled with peace.

Yes, I know what I'm getting myself into, and I know how lonely life can get there.

But I also know how God is my comfort and my strength.

In the days where I just want to be anywhere but China, He calms my heart and gives me peace.

 He gives me joy when I have none.

He gives me strength when I miss my family and friends.

And He fills me with His presence.

Continually.

 The adventures of my 2nd year are about to begin.

God has provided and I'm excited to see how He is going to use me in this coming year.

 "The peace of Christ, which passes all understanding, will guard your hearts and your mind in Christ Jesus."  (Philippians 4:7)