Wednesday, April 17, 2013

Trusting in the Midst of Uncertainty

There goes my plan to blog more while home.
I appear to have abandoned this blog lately. 
Often times while in China people ask me who I have so much time to blog.
Well, when your family and most of your friends are 7,000 miles away, it's pretty easy to find time to blog and journal!
Both of those have been put on the back burner since being in the states.
My time at home has been so very, very good. 
I went on vacation with my family to South Carolina, and this past week has been spent putting support letters together as well as seeing several good friends.
This week's plan was to get my visa application done and submitted. 
Past years the visa has been pretty simple. Fill out the application, get a passport picture taken, then send it all plus my passport and money to the Visa company and I get my passport back within 10 days with my Visa stamp in it.
It's been over a year since I've applied for a Chinese Visa (mine was good for about 15 months) and China has changed a few of their requirements.

Let's just say that I have all of a sudden found myself in the midst of uncertainty. 
I'm pretty sure China will issue me a visa but for how long? 
Now that is the question. 
Last night I took my eye off of my Father. 
I started looking at my circumstances and fretting about the "what if's."
"What if my visa doesn't come before I'm supposed to leave on May 22nd?!"
"What if China doesn't issue another 12 month visa?"
"What if they don't issue me a visa at all?"
"What if I have to change my return ticket because I don't have my Visa yet?"
So many questions and worries that began to overwhelm my heart.
After a night spent sending emails and just waiting to hear back from my contacts in China, I felt God speak quietly to my heart:

"What about me? Why are you not taking this situation to me? I healed Treasure, do you not trust me enough that I can provide something as easy as a Visa?"

Hmmm.... good question, God. 
Why did I start feeling anxious automatically to the point of being in tears?
Why DIDN'T I take this to Him from the very beginning?
Well because I am on this journey of faith and trust just like the rest of you.
I often get the impression from people that because I moved to the other side of the world for an indefinite amount of time, that I somehow "have it all together."
No, that is not the case, friends.
I struggle with faith and trust just like the rest of you. 
And just like the rest of you, God has to remind me over and over again that He IS in control.
I feel very confident that God has called me to China for another year.
And even though there may be a few more hoops to jump through, He will see me through.

Will you pray with me?
Pray that I will get all of the correct documents and paperwork I need for my Visa to be approved?
And that it will all happen BEFORE May 22nd when I am scheduled to fly back.

A dear friend reminded me of a verse from Ephesians this morning and has been my "theme verse" on this journey the Lord has me on:

"Now to Him who is ABLE to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to His power that is at work within us."
Ephesians 3:20

1 comment:

  1. thanks for sharing so openly. It's easy to "feel" like you're confident in God's provision and then suddenly one little thing happens and we crumble. I do it more than I'd like to admit.

    I too had grand plans for blogging more when we were on the mainland... eh, it didn't happen :) Furlough sometimes seems to be BUSIER than time doing what we normally do doesn't it?

    also, one of my photo teachers posted this link today, thought you might be interested? -->

    bless you dude!


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